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the day i met alice 1/15/2024
Jan. 15th, 2025 01:16 amthere are some odd details in here!
when i woke up this day, bea offered to make waffles. she started cooking, but alice arrived at the train station earlier than she thought. she had a bunch of luggage so we had to go down and help her out. when i met her, her energy was.. well, it was very alice! she was somewhat chaotic and she was fun. when we started walking back, i said something i couldn't remember, and she said "is she always like this??" to bea, referring to me. we got back to bea's dorm and i sat down on the bed. she immediately took off her shirt. if i had a nickel for every time someone took off their shirt within 10 minutes of getting to a dorm with me, i'd have two nickels. it's not much, but it's weird that it's happened twice. we got along really well right off the bat. she pulled me down and bit me really hard. it was awesome. she then realized i had a belly button. and more awesome stuff happened. her AND bea started doing stuff to me. it was insane. my mormon brain was exploding.
eventually we realized we were late to the train. i think alice and bea got into a fight while i was getting ready. the energy in the room shifted. i got a little scared. the energy was similar to when i was in a household where my former mother in law would get really upset. obviously this isn't to say anyone is like her by any means. it was just an energy that i was sensitive to. we headed out and explored the train station again. the wheel on my suitcase broke, so i had to carry it. as we ventured through the train station, we got a little lost. i definitely didn't know where i was, but neither did alice and bea. after a bunch of walking, we eventually reached a train that we rode on for a long time. it was a quiet train. me and alice silently goofed off and bea told alice off a couple times over it. i felt bad. i felt like it was my fault. i felt like i was being a burden. we kept riding the train and eventually got off somewhere and we met bea's dad. we had to pile into the car, but there was no room for me whatsoever. i weaved in between stuff in the car, and ended up putting my foot somewhere that really hurt. i talked to bea's dad a little bit in the car since he had never met me before, and we made our way to the house. when we got there, i sat down with alice and bea. i played breakup song on my guitar, and alice sang along. it made me really really happy. afterwards, bea got up to do something. alice tried to retune the guitar, but broke a string and she had a panic attack. i tried to calm her down, and i was very patient with her. eventually she felt better. i think at that point i kinda started to like her. bea came back, and said it wasn't a big deal that the string broke. i was relieved.
we went downstairs to jam out, and we started rehearsing our songs. it took a while to set up, and we eventually figured everything out. we jammed out for a little bit, and we sounded better than i thought we would've. it was a lot of fun! during this time cecily was starting to text me a lot and i was starting to get really stressed out by some of the things she said. i was really exhausted by the traveling, and historically i don't do good while i travel, so i started to get really stressed out. eventually bea went upstairs again, and i was hanging out with alice, and i started crying. i was so overwhelmed by my emotions and the trip that i started to get ticks, i think. i kept jolting my neck and head to the right while i was crying. this has never really happened before. i was trying so hard to hold it together. alice was really good at comforting me. she distracted me with a video on her phone. bea came back and asked if i was okay. i told her i was.
we started to jam out a little more. i wrote down some structures in my phone, and we got the set down really well. after we got done with bunnydeath, alice hugged me tight and said we were going to do great. i started to feel really happy around her. i could tell that my drumming meant a lot to her and it made me happy. she kissed me that night. it was awesome. she also dropped a "what if the joker was woke" comment and i laughed so hard i fell to the ground. it was awesome. i had a really good time with her and bea that night. we were trying to figure out who was gonna sleep where, and bea said she wanted to sleep with me. she seemed like she was tearing up a little. i offered to sleep with bea that night because i was realistically going to sleep with alice a lot at the hotel room. we went upstairs, and i fell asleep in an extra room with bea. we cuddled a lot that night. it was really really cold so i cuddled her close.
when i woke up this day, bea offered to make waffles. she started cooking, but alice arrived at the train station earlier than she thought. she had a bunch of luggage so we had to go down and help her out. when i met her, her energy was.. well, it was very alice! she was somewhat chaotic and she was fun. when we started walking back, i said something i couldn't remember, and she said "is she always like this??" to bea, referring to me. we got back to bea's dorm and i sat down on the bed. she immediately took off her shirt. if i had a nickel for every time someone took off their shirt within 10 minutes of getting to a dorm with me, i'd have two nickels. it's not much, but it's weird that it's happened twice. we got along really well right off the bat. she pulled me down and bit me really hard. it was awesome. she then realized i had a belly button. and more awesome stuff happened. her AND bea started doing stuff to me. it was insane. my mormon brain was exploding.
eventually we realized we were late to the train. i think alice and bea got into a fight while i was getting ready. the energy in the room shifted. i got a little scared. the energy was similar to when i was in a household where my former mother in law would get really upset. obviously this isn't to say anyone is like her by any means. it was just an energy that i was sensitive to. we headed out and explored the train station again. the wheel on my suitcase broke, so i had to carry it. as we ventured through the train station, we got a little lost. i definitely didn't know where i was, but neither did alice and bea. after a bunch of walking, we eventually reached a train that we rode on for a long time. it was a quiet train. me and alice silently goofed off and bea told alice off a couple times over it. i felt bad. i felt like it was my fault. i felt like i was being a burden. we kept riding the train and eventually got off somewhere and we met bea's dad. we had to pile into the car, but there was no room for me whatsoever. i weaved in between stuff in the car, and ended up putting my foot somewhere that really hurt. i talked to bea's dad a little bit in the car since he had never met me before, and we made our way to the house. when we got there, i sat down with alice and bea. i played breakup song on my guitar, and alice sang along. it made me really really happy. afterwards, bea got up to do something. alice tried to retune the guitar, but broke a string and she had a panic attack. i tried to calm her down, and i was very patient with her. eventually she felt better. i think at that point i kinda started to like her. bea came back, and said it wasn't a big deal that the string broke. i was relieved.
we went downstairs to jam out, and we started rehearsing our songs. it took a while to set up, and we eventually figured everything out. we jammed out for a little bit, and we sounded better than i thought we would've. it was a lot of fun! during this time cecily was starting to text me a lot and i was starting to get really stressed out by some of the things she said. i was really exhausted by the traveling, and historically i don't do good while i travel, so i started to get really stressed out. eventually bea went upstairs again, and i was hanging out with alice, and i started crying. i was so overwhelmed by my emotions and the trip that i started to get ticks, i think. i kept jolting my neck and head to the right while i was crying. this has never really happened before. i was trying so hard to hold it together. alice was really good at comforting me. she distracted me with a video on her phone. bea came back and asked if i was okay. i told her i was.
we started to jam out a little more. i wrote down some structures in my phone, and we got the set down really well. after we got done with bunnydeath, alice hugged me tight and said we were going to do great. i started to feel really happy around her. i could tell that my drumming meant a lot to her and it made me happy. she kissed me that night. it was awesome. she also dropped a "what if the joker was woke" comment and i laughed so hard i fell to the ground. it was awesome. i had a really good time with her and bea that night. we were trying to figure out who was gonna sleep where, and bea said she wanted to sleep with me. she seemed like she was tearing up a little. i offered to sleep with bea that night because i was realistically going to sleep with alice a lot at the hotel room. we went upstairs, and i fell asleep in an extra room with bea. we cuddled a lot that night. it was really really cold so i cuddled her close.
